Wednesday, August 15, 2007
I'm moving!
But it's not far away, don't worry! Ever since Blogger updated their site, my blog hasn't quite jived with things. So, I've moved over to the newer version to make things easier on myself. You won't notice a big difference... just a minor address change. As the telephone operator says when you've dialed a wrong number, "please make a note of it."I'll leave this blog up for a couple weeks but will be deleting it soon, and all new posts will be at my new address starting today. I can't wait to see you there!
Weslynn at 1:34 PM
Monday, August 13, 2007
Consumed
Lately I feel so different. I feel like myself, but a better version of me. Like I just opened up my heart, ripped out the woman I was created to be and met her for the first time. I only got here through facing some ugly things about myself and finally saying "no more." No more settling, no more compromise, no more excuses, no more ordinary life. I want more. I would never be here, however, if it wasn't for the awesome grace of God.It's a crazy feeling, this whole "being truly free" thing. I'm feeling and experiencing God in a whole new way. I feel short of breath when I start thinking of Him. My heart starts beating faster, and my stomach starts turning. At random times during everyday moments I all of a sudden feel so overwhelmed by His grace and His love that I just want to shout, sometimes cry. I calm myself down so I don't startle whoever is around me through a sudden shout or a burst into tears of joy. But I just don't know how much longer I can keep calm! I now understand, more than I ever have, how Jeremiah felt when He said, "His word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot." No exaggeration, I feel like I'm just about to explode!
It's exciting to feel this way as a matured believer. I remember feeling this way when I was a babe in Christ, pulled out of a pit and a life of hurt and disgust and brought into the light. But it's so awesome to know that I can feel this way again, and that it's even stronger... and I pray this never wanes. I know that staying at this place, however, is my choice. I have to be the one to make the conscious decision to keep this fire aflame. No one else -- not even God -- can keep me here. Only I can do that.
I've always loved the DC Talk song "Consume me." The lyrics go, "You consume me, You consume me, like a burning flame running through my veins..." I promise, there is no better feeling in this world than to be consumed by the Maker of all things. (Not even sex or a mind-blowing orgasm! There, I said it. It's true!)
I'm so overwhelmed by His grace, by His love... I just can't keep it in! I just have to have Him. More of Him. I can't get enough.
From my heart,
Weslynn at 2:43 PM